Under some other sky.

its hard to take beautiful pictures, when the world doesnt seem beautiful anymore.

Sometimes I just need to talk to someone who loves me.

my friend Josh started a record label with his friend in seattle.

So they had a house party on Halloween.

Basically 4 hours of fog, lasers, lights, and dancing.

I walked outside and I was soaking wet and steaming..

gross, but fun :D

http://www.myspace.com/iamdjphantom

http://www.myspace.com/djfuke

http://www.myspace.com/nightmarecontrolpanel

but you dont know him :/

So, Ive liked the same guy for about 3 years. I mean… I dont like him. I love him… but only when I see him. Hes straight and Ive always known that liking him was stupid… but I mean I couldnt really help it. Anyways, we used to be really close, I guess best friends? Then we didnt go to school with eachother for two years. We just stopped talking, idk. no reason… but whatever. Well this year we go to school together again. I didnt think anything of it…. but seeing him everyday is so hard. I mean, every time I see him I remember how close we are, and everything comes rushing back. Only he pretends like I dont exist. Idk, like he walks right past me and ignores me. The other day I gave him a little punch as he walked by and said “Hey”…. and he just kept walking like nothing had happened….

what am i supposed to do?

to be honest… I’m down right scared.

what is there to be sad about????